Sunday, November 7, 2010
What an amateur mistake....
Okay, so I ranted about this a few blogs back - how my injury has set me back from moving forward with my weight loss and activity level as fast as I would like lately.
I am now ready to admit that of my 104 lbs that I had lost, I had gained back 8. Yes, 8. Over the course of the past 6 weeks, having my mobility so insanely limited, and really sinking into an almost depressive state over it, I gained 8 freaking pounds.
Seriously!?! F*@K!!! Oh, you cannot imagine how incredibly pissed off I was at Weight Watchers when I went and weighed in 10 days ago - another 3lb gain. WTF!?! I was so cantankerous, that I couldn't even summon the energy to stick around for the meeting. I went home, and did what I always do when negative things happen to me... I allowed myself one. last. night. I wanted to eat....so I did. I had Subway. Funny how 1.5 years ago you would have found me near drowning in a massive tub of ice cream or lost in a bag of chips, and now I'm just so mad I could eat Subway!!!
So yes, I allowed myself one last night to be pissed off, sad, angry and upset. And then I forced myself back up, dusted myself off, stood straight, faced forward and kept going. One foot in front of the other.
I also called upon Feather. I needed to vent, and I needed help. Her first question? "Have you scaled back what you have been eating to compensate for the lack of exercise?"
Ummmmmmm....NO. What a brick to the head moment that was! Duh! It never even dawned on me that I should consider doing that. And really? How could it? It's not like I have ever increased my food to fuel me through workouts before this past 6 months...so to scale them back when I am injured? Well that's a brand new concept for lil' ol' me.
For the whole next week, I scaled it back by about 400 calories a day, and I tried super hard to move more - walking is about the best I can do these days. (Stupid back.)
And it worked!!! I lost 5 of those stupid 8 pounds.
I really feel like it was a temporary 2 steps back that I took - but it was also a lesson that I had to learn. Not just about the calories being reduced, but also the need to ask for help, and admit defeat when you need to.
Sometimes, you just have to rally in the troops. The people who will lend a hand, and ear, and a swift kick to the arse. When you work hard to accomplish something, and it slowly starts slipping away, you may have to ask for help to hold on to it. I'm super thankful that I did.
I hope that you are having an awesome day!