There is a first time for everything...

When I started going to the gym 2 years ago, I went exclusively to gyms that were for women only, or had women only sections. You couldn't have paid me enough to work out in the co-ed section of the gym. My God, there are men out there!!!!
Attending classes was another source of extreme anxiety for me - I'm talking shortness of breath, excessive sweating, teary-eyed anxiety - so I always placed myself at the back, or against the wall, because I just felt safer there... hoping that nobody would see me, judge me, shoot me dirty looks, or the worst? Say something unkind that I could overhear.

The sad, but very true reality, is that people aren't nice to overweight people. They just aren't. It seems to be the last socially acceptable form of discrimination.

Anyways, you should hear me lately...all of the time saying "I've never done that before", "This is new", "That's weird", "There is a first time for everything."

And last week was yet another first. In an ongoing effort to curb my spending, maintain my activity level, and surround myself with people who support me; I quit Goodlife, and joined Fit 4 Less. 


With. Kwesi.

Remember the girl would wouldn't work out in the co-ed section!?!

I, yes! Me! went to the gym WITH a boy man! A boy man that I like. Who likes me back. As I am. A boy man who supports me towards my goals, and encourages me to continue on this journey towards being my best me. Whaaaaaaaaaaaat!?! *pinch, pinch, pinch*

It's weird.
But I like it.
Sometimes it freaks me out though, so I breathe deeply, practice being brave, and frigging do it anyways.

It is definitely better than hiding in the corner hoping to God that nobody sees me.
Doesn't make it any less weird though.

I hope that you are having an awesome day!
xoxox
Jenn